I’m sitting here in my office, feeling like I just gave birth. Physically, mentally, spiritually. I’m getting messages from participants telling me the same. We’re all feeling raw, alive, and, honestly, kind of postpartum, but in the best way possible.

Emerge was everything.

It was one of those days where you can’t quite put into words what you’re feeling because what we experienced was so much more than any of us could have imagined. We breathed underwater. We breathed in the rain. It was like the heavens themselves were wide open for us. The clouds parted, the sun peeked through, and it felt like the babies emerging in the water were being carried into the arms of their "parent" partners by something bigger than us.

There was a stillness in that water. A sanctity we didn’t want to disturb. Mascara was dripping down our faces, and we didn’t even notice. We were too busy feeling cleansed.

We danced. We grieved. We loved. We shared.

And, somehow, it feels like that was just the beginning.

The real magic of the day wasn’t even just the pool. It was the time we spent crafting prayers and blessings for each other. We came in as strangers, and by the end of it, we left as family. We wept for one another. We celebrated one another. And we'll definitely be seeing each other again. 

There are no words. But there are feelings.

I’ve been reflecting all day on how postpartum this feels, and I don’t mean it in any traditional way. It’s the kind of rawness that comes with doing something you know was exactly what you were meant to do. I’m overwhelmed with gratitude that I get to live a life where I can serve something greater. Even if that service sometimes looks like handing out pool floaties, making sure everyone’s hydrated, and dancing in the rain.

As much as I'm technically in charge of “running” the day, it reality, it never feels that way. My name might be on the flyer, but in these spaces, I get to be a part of something larger.

The words "מַלְאֲכֵי הַשָּׁרֵת" keep running through my mind.

I keep having the deepest sense of joy and gratitude; for the opportunity my life has given me, to being a messenger in service of something more.

The way we glowed at the end of the evening, you had to be there to understand it. But even if you weren’t, know that it was the kind of glow that comes from breathing as if for the very first time.

I can’t even describe it in words except for what Chanie said, “This day Delivered.” It was punny, sure, but it was also 100% true. This was delivery.

Love. Laughter. Joy. The very best kind.

In a sarcastic moment the other day, I was telling my favorite daughter Dassa*, “You know what they don’t tell you about becoming a parent? That it’s forever.”

I meant it as a joke, but it’s also such a truth. This day was forever. And we all felt it. Stepping out of that water, we knew it was the first day of the forever we’re all now stepping into, where we will nurture ourselves, love ourselves, and become the best versions of ourselves.

Of course, at points during the day, my deep aversion for the words "healing journey" came up into the space. We laughed about it but also talked about how life isn’t just about healing. It’s about growth. It’s about love. And, in Sari’s case, sass.

So we’re replacing the word “healing” with something more alive for us.

Personally, I’m on a “Trajectory of Curiosity” (for now, until that idea gets boring, and I’ll pick another one).

I’m excited to see where this new Forever takes me.

I know some of you feel like you missed out. And you totally did. But guess what? There’s more coming, and I can’t wait for you to experience it.

For starters, I’ll be featured on the JAM Summit this week - such a cool concept made for busy moms who’ve got Just A Minute to get the wisdom they need from amazing women. I’m on tomorrow’s lineup, and trust me, you’ll want to sign up today.

Also, Vessel registration is opening soon, and I’m so excited about what’s coming with that (but I can’t say just yet).

And... there’s a teeny (weeny) chance there might be another one-day event this summer. I can’t promise anything, but second chances? They’re totally a thing. So stay tuned!

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* Dassa is also my only daughter. That's why she's my favorite. I highly recommend daughters. They are awesome. They teach you the best makeup tricks, and also help you stay relevant and cool. 

* Vessel is my flagship course that is so much more than anything I can possibly write on the site. It's the foundation to everything I teach. Yesterday at Emerge, Nechama said that she was surprised meeting me in person.

Because I'm much smaller than people expect (for real!) and also exude a ton of aliveness. 

My secret sauce? Vessel. 

I really believe that we live this work in our bodies. And when you get to reclaim parts of yourself you may have lost, rejected, or hidden in shadow - you grow younger, and get access to so much more of your energy "battery."

You'll see. 

* Also, here's a song we played yesterday at Emerge.